How my experience with blogging has changed me as a person.
‘ve been blogging for over 4 years. How quickly that time has gone and just how far me and my little blog has come in that time is amazing. Here is part 1.
Blogging has always been an out source of creativity and emotions for me. A place to inspire and showcase to people that it’s okay to be different. I’ve always wanted my platforms to showcase the beauty in being yourself and being happy in the skin you’re in.
My experience has varied over the years.
And so it was born…
I started my blog because I went through a really sudden and horrid break up with my first boyfriend. So many people told me I should start a blog as I was constantly posting fashion photographs on my facebook and Lookbook.nu account. Back then my blog was called “Quirky Curls Fashion” I dressed very differently to how the Luke of today dresses. Back then I was young and naive. Coming out of a relationship that was suppressive towards me being myself and being creative, I instantly showcased who I was through my blog.
I started small, I didn’t have a domain name, I didn’t have a fancy website and I didn’t have a fancy set ups. I didn’t have a schedule, I posted when I had the time to post as I was juggling a full time job too. My blog was just fashion. While my blog wasn’t getting noticed it was a place to vent, a way to showcase my creativity. To channel my emotions of going through a break up. With a history of eating disorders and anxiety I needed something to channel my emotions into while going through the break up. This becomes a common theme towards my blogging.
A typical post for me would of been one photo and a little piece on an outfit I loved, or a trend that was trending at that point in time. Here is one of my “Favourite Outfit” posts The posts lacked a little, However, at the time I thought that they were enough. Doing these post filled me with so much happiness. I really enjoyed going out and taking photos, and writing up about why I loved the outfit so much.
The Early Mistakes
2 years passed and I felt like my blog wasn’t really getting anywhere. I felt like I was comparing myself to so many different bloggers, which in itself is a mistake. I kept seeing bloggers getting collaborations and partnerships with brands and I wasn’t. It was becoming a very expensive thing to buy new clothes and showcase different outfits. I was running out of options within my own clothes to showcase as I had exhausted different styles and outfits within my wardrobe. This was down to not networking properly. I wasn’t getting my posts or blog out there, I wasn’t showing the world what I had to offer. I would just write a post and then blog it and do nothing else.
Social Media Outsourcing
This is where Instagram, Facebook and Twitter came to my aid. I realised I had a decent following on all of my social media accounts, so I started sharing my posts to my social profiles to gain a wider audience. Which helped me gain confidence and start to get personal with my blog. I felt I could as I wanted to inspire and help people with fashion.
I mainly started posting to Facebook as at the time it was the place where I had the biggest following. A lot of my co-workers and friends would read my posts, which gave me a boost in confidence as I knew people were going to my blog to read about things that I had a strong passion for. I continued to share posts across my social media accounts.
In doing this I got noticed by ASOS. This was my first collaborative post and I was so excited. I was literally out of this world happy, I couldn’t contain my excitement, I wanted the photos to be perfect, I wanted to make sure my outfit was really on point. I did a couple of posts for ASOS which was at the time was like my dream collaboration, I was so in love with ASOS, I was so pleased with myself for getting this for myself on my blog. The picture to the left was a campaign about denim and I got the wide leg denim look. Which I feel I styled so well.
On top of this I felt my photographs wasn’t getting the right showcase. I kept seeing bloggers in white washed streets and perfect set ups. Where as my photos were very much countryside living and small village type settings as I don’t live in a city. I had very little option to go find cool and quirky places. But I stuck to my guns and tried my very best to keep “my brand” in my photography. Which today is very much still my brand.
Mental Health Block
2016 I was getting into a rhythm and routine to my blogging. I was trying to blog at least once a week. However I started to really fall behind with my postings as I had a really bad time with my mental health. My anxiety started to rule me as a person. I’ve always suffered with anxiety from as far back as primary school, it’s always been a part of who I am. But this time it was taking over who I was. I was put on medication for the first time in my life for my anxiety.
I felt defeated as I wasn’t inspired to blog, nor was I in a place to go out and take photographs as I just felt so low. 4 different medications I was tested on to try and curve the anxiety. Some medication made me feel so much. This made my anxiety even worse. Some of the medications made me feel nothing at all. I was completely numb to any emotions. Once finding the correct medication after around 5 months I started to feel like me again. But my blog took a hit as I was nervous and anxious all of the time. Once I had been put on the right medication I threw myself straight into it. I even went one step further and started a YouTube to showcase my fashion.
After filming my introduction video for my YouTube 14 times I was ready to start the new venture into showcasing my fashion through video form. After receiving good feedback about my posts starting to get better. Getting more views on my posts from my social media outlets I wanted to try something a little different. I wanted to inspire people through video form.
The fact I started YouTube was a big step for me towards my mental health also. It gave me something to do when I was feeling anxious or was feeling down. With this I also started doing videos about anxiety and mental health to try and reach out to other people who also was burdened with it. I wanted to reach other people who felt they couldn’t be themselves and who were afraid to showcase themselves. I wanted to show people it’s okay to wear different clothes and to really showcase who you was as a person.
Doing these videos really gave me an output on being creative. I could really showcase something new and fresh towards my brand but at the same time showcasing my personality within the video. Doing this new approach went down so well. My followers loved that I started doing a YouTube and taking my blog in a whole new direction. I really do miss the whole YouTubing experience. Maybe when I move to Manchester it’s something I can always start up again.
Here is one of my videos with my Sister that I really enjoyed doing. Also a Spring time look I loved filming as I was in a wood surrounded by blue bell flowers.
This was just the starting of my journey of becoming the blogger I am today. Part 2 coming soon……