December really has been a horrible month for me. I’ve not felt myself for a long time now due to my break up and just not feeling good enough. But I still try and go through with things just so I have something to do. I thought I was doing really well until today and a wave of emotion came over me. I crumbled as something was posted to me and it really made me realise that this is final and that is it now. Which made me so upset. All I wanted to do was call, text him or get into my car and just go see him. But I know that wouldn’t do any good or what he would want. It was a good hour or two that I brushed myself off and sat down and made myself think what I could do to try and take my mind off things. I realised I had purchased a super cool background and that I would take some photos of myself to try and prove to myself that regardless of what happens, I should never let anyone dull my sparkle. In doing so I came across this quote: “I can choose to let it define me, confine me, refine me, outshine me or I can choose to move on and leave it behind me” As much as it pains me to leave it behind me, there is just no hope that anything will ever happen. Going into a new year I need to focus on me and what I want. I am strong and I can be strong.