Lately, I’ve been dealing with random bursts of overpowering anxiety. If you’ve kept up with my blog from the start then you know this is a very known fact that I suffer from anxiety. In the past my anxiety used to get the better of me, to the point where I just had to be left alone, I would get that exhausted from it that it made me very ill and it would completely ruin a day or even more. Most of the time my anxiety would come along when I was doing things such as when I went from my driving test, when I went to a job interview or even when I met someone new. The things that most people do get nervous about, however, my anxiety would also come along when I least expected for example when I needed to phone someone up this even included my own family and friends. It was that point I knew I needed help. After so many medications through trial and error, I found the right one that balanced me out and I run the course of it. It’s been 2 years since I was on medication for my anxiety but recently I’ve been thinking do I need to go back to them to try and fix these sudden outbursts?
I’ve kind of found a pattern to why I get sudden outbursts of anxiety. Being a blogger I’m constantly looking on Instagram, Twitter, Tumblr and Pinterest. You see so many different types of people, but for me, I mainly see people who appear to be doing better than me. I get myself into a panic thinking, what am I doing with my life? Where from the outset, I’m actually doing the best I can be. But nothing fills me with more dread and anxiety than seeing someone buying their own house, starting a family or even just getting more comments on a blog post, where at first I thought it was jealousy… it wasn’t. If I felt jealous towards them I would feel enraged and not want to see that person on my feed, but for me I just get the sense of I’m not good enough for that person because they have so much more than me, I love nothing more than seeing people on my feed who have done so well, I always go out of my way to try to showcase how much I love seeing them on my feed but sometimes it gets too much. Social media is a beautiful place where lots of people come together to share snippets of their own lives, but for people who struggle with depression and anxiety it’s hard to digest sometimes as it triggers thoughts, “Well why haven’t I got that?” So this is my way of dealing with those kind of thoughts…
- Stop comparing yourself to others and take a moment to celebrate all things you’ve achieved – Everyone is at different stages in their life. Some people may be younger than you and doing all the things you consider “do well” and then there may be people older than you in a worse a situation than you. You should never think people are doing better than you just because they have more things than you. It’s all about timing and how people react to things. Life isn’t a race.
- If that doesn’t work, channel your thoughts into a blog post or something you’re passionate about – This is something I often do. If I feel low and I really can’t get myself out of that thought process I take a deep breath and think of things I can do that will channel that negative energy, to which I create something that makes me proud. The photos you see on this post was part of a reason when I was so anxious. I went out and did some photography on my own and came up with these images.
- If that doesn’t work, go out and get yourself a walk (Without taking your phone) – Lose yourself in nature and just forget about everything around you. Immerse yourself in the beautiful scenery or even your local coffee shop. It gets you out of your head space for a while.
- If none of the above work then maybe consider having a break from social media – Coming off social media will allow you to work on yourself. Forget about everything. People in the blogging community or social media world all know it too well. They will give nothing but support towards you, but at the end of the day, your mental health should come first. Regardless of anything.
Just remember you are more than your social media. This is just somewhere we come to be with one with the world. Yes there are some amazing and lovely people on here, that would do more than enough to make sure you’re okay. But you need to make sure you’re okay first. That is the main thing!