I know you won’t see this but I wanted to show the world my appreciation I have for you. From as far back as I can remember you have been there for me when I needed you the most. You were there for me through the bullying at school, tough times when I was having trouble battling with my weight. You’ve been there for me when I was going through terrible breakups, a shoulder to cry on and a hug when I needed it the most. Most of all, and something I am lucky enough to say, You were there for me when I came out gay. I remember writing the letter to tell you and Dad I was gay, I put the note in front of the kettle and went to work. I then had a phone call mid part through the day and it was you, telling me that you loved me regardless. The weight off my shoulders was amazing. It’s something like that, that you just took upon yourself to make me feel accepted and I know we as a family doesn’t really talk about feelings, that day was a big step for me and you. I felt I grow closer to you knowing you accepted me for who I was.
Regardless of how you feel, you’ve always made sure that I and my siblings are always okay. Regardless of how in pain you are with your arthritis or the pain from your slipped disks, you always solider on and always make sure that myself and my siblings have everything we need. Yes, we may have our differences at times and yes we will fight but that’s because we’re so alike in what we do. But when we do argue and have our little fits against each other, I still love you no matter what. You’re like a really good friend to me, though we don’t share everything with one another and that’s okay because we are entitled to our own space and own lives, I still feel so close to you. As I get older I realise just how special and how much you mean to me. Now I’m moving out I will most certainly miss the banter that we have and all of our little jokes we have together. I’ll miss the cup of tea all ready for me when I get home from work. I’ll miss the movie quotes we do to throw sass at each other. I’ll miss the texts you send me every day when I’m eating my breakfast at work asking me what I wanted for my tea. I will miss how infectious your laugh is, when I’m sat in my room I can hear you laughing from the other side of the house. It’s the little things we take for granted that I will miss the most.
When I move out I’ll just realise how much you used to do for me and though I don’t say it every day, I just want to say Thank you so much. I honestly wouldn’t know what I’d do without you. You’re an inspirational woman. You’ve taught me to be kind, caring and thoughtful in every aspect of life. Though we both share anxiety, you have taught me to be strong. I thank you for making me realise that not everyone will like you, not everyone will like you but you just have to wear that smile on your face and carry on. You truly are one of my favourite people and though I act like I don’t have emotions most of the time, as soon as it comes to a card or something like this you understand just how I feel. So this is where I wish you a Happy Mother’s Day and I wish I could buy you, your own private holiday island as that is what you deserve, but alas, I can’t afford that. So I hope you enjoy your trench coat and at the fact, we are “Twinning” in our annual photo for Mother’s Day. I love you lots.
I also know you won’t see this but I want to show the world just how much of an amazing woman you really are. As far back as I can remember you have always been there for us as a family. Regardless of what happens, you were always there. You and Grandad have had it rough over the years and life hasn’t been kind to you. But regardless of all of this you still have an amazing outlook on life. No matter what, you have that amazing smile, that lights up a room and an infectious laugh that you just can’t help laughing with. You’re one of the strongest women I know. When Grandad was really poorly, you helped him even though you were just as poorly. You marched on and made sure things were done. Last year you lost two of your sisters within a space of a 3-month gap as well as your beloved horse. I couldn’t imagine with dealing with such loss. But you, being the strong woman you are, didn’t let it define you. Though I know you must have been hurting so much due to the sadness I hear in your voice every time you talk about your sisters and Holly (the horse) You put on a brave face and carry on. You’re an inspirational woman who has gone through so many crappy things in her life. As well as crappy times, you’ve had some great times too. Like our family holidays together and spending every Christmas with each other, that’s what it’s all about and what I look forward to the most. Us spending Christmas together at ours and then coming to your house on boxing day to lounge around in our pyjamas while playing pool and having endless amounts of food, drink (a little too much drink sometimes) and an abundance of laughter. That’s something your house doesn’t lack, laughter. No matter what, whenever I come around you and Grandad always laugh and make sure that I laugh too. Which is a trait I think I have been passed down? When I’m around you make me feel nothing but happy and smiley. I really love coming to your house to have a moan and putting the world to right with a cup of tea and a biscuit. You’re nothing but a positive and loving woman that always puts her family before herself. You inspire me so much with how much you’ve been through. You’re one of a kind and I love you lots.